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Dear readers, I won’t be writing here anymore.

I have registered for a new blog, email me if you still want to read my blah-blah gibberish. My email is pang.yuting[at]gmail[dot]com.

Likewise for friends who know me personally; you can ask me for the URL on MSN. But if I don’t like you, I won’t give it to you.

Just kidding.

Can’t believe I’ve been writing here for almost 3 years. It’s been great while it lasted, and of course, you guys have been great too. Sometimes it tickles me that somewhere out there, there are people who find my angsty moments and twisted sense of humour funny and entertaining.

It’s hard to leave this place. I love this blog name… Genesis of Mind. And the memories… I’ll leave them here, but I don’t think I can scroll down the pages and not have tears welling up in my eyes.

It’s time to go. I’ll put this space to its sweetest coma.

Goodbye!

bear bear the caretaker

Tired

It was a super fun day today! Kinda like an impromptu date to go cycling with Melissa at East Coast Park, and boy was I excited! Haven’t cycled in years! Actually I kept looking for cycling kakis but to no avail… well, I got lucky this time. ^o^

We rented our bikes from ECP and cycled allllllllll the way to Changi Village. HAHAHA! Can you believe it?! I’m amazed that we could last all the way there. Had a plate of the famous Changi Village Hawker Centre’s Nasi Lemak each, and we rode alllllllllll the way back to ECP to return the bikes.

Holey moley moo moo cow!

It was almost 5 solid hours of cycling and non-stop talking. Really enjoyed it…

We talked about a lot of stuff, felt really liberating. It’s friends like this who make me feel really comforted, and this is the kind of friendship I really treasure. Thanks mel, for listening to all my ramblings. =))) I wish the best for you too… you know what.

Down side is, my butt cheeks really hurt now. And I got a little bit tanner. Damn!

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As for the other part of my life…

Seriously, I know what all of you are curious about.

I will tell you if I want to, so don’t bother asking.

The last thing I need now is to see someone judge me and the situation I am in. I really do not need that, because you will never know how I feel, what I feel, what is it that I’ve realised, and what I’ve been through for these past weeks.

And please… I really do not know how to differentiate nosey people who looks like they are really concerned, and people who are genuinely concerned. So if you really just want to pry into the affairs of mine, fuck off, alright? Spare me. I’m not here like a prostitute – be used by you and then get dumped after I have satisfied your curiosity.

Don’t make me feel The Utter Regret after telling you stuff, because when I do…

I think I can never trust you anymore.

Don’t expect help from me ever again, no matter how much you need it from me, and no matter how much you yearn for a listening ear. You don’t deserve it from me. Deal with your own problems and do the thing you do best, JUDGE. But this time round, judge YOURSELF.

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Pee Pee & Oysters

Just wanna let all of you know… I’M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER OF SCHOOL!!! Yeayyy!!!

Although this term feels really dreadful, but never mind. I’m still keeping very positive. ^o^ In any case, a cup of hazelnut chocolate milk tea with lots of zhen zhu from Cup Walker can make me happy anytime. (I had 1 cup  yesterday! )

The horrifying thing now is that I gotta start counting down to the end of my holidays, which is until this Sunday, and I need to get busy again. Aw man! It’s really a tiring 3rd year for me. So relax I shall… for these few days.

Anyway! Something amusing to share…

Just a cute little conversation I over heard at the LRT station today, between a mother and her little daughter.

Mom: Come, drink water.

Kid: Orh.

Mom: You got pee pee or not?

Kid: …

Mom: Eh, you got pee pee or not?

Kid: What pee pee?

Mom: Urine lah. You got urine or not?

Kid: *shakes head*

Mom: Har?! You never urine?!

Kid: Bluff you one.

Hahaha! So cute! I was almost laughing out loud when the kid asked, “what pee pee?” That kid doesn’t understand her very own kid lingo?! Hahaha… I was so amused.

I really have this love-hate situation with kids. They annoy me sometimes but make me so tickled at other times. Hehehe.

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And on to oysters…

Anyone got recommendations to get good fresh oysters? Not too expensive please. Haha!

If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man

I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
and you don’t understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’re taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

but you’re just a boy

Not for Sale

Was at Art Friend looking at papers today, and one of them was named “snow white”.

Me: Look, you can buy snow white here! *grins*

He: *looks*

Me: Hmm… she’s for sale at, let’s see… 42 cents! Hoho.

He: Hahaha… Then what about you?

Me: Me?

He: How much are you worth?

Me: Hurm… me ah… if you want a price, ask my mother. She can quote you a price.

He: Haha!

Me: But if you ask me, nope I don’t have a price tag to myself. I don’t sell myself… or my soul. But I can give my heart away, and I really mean… give.

He: To me?

Me: Hah… To anyone whom I want to? And once I’ve made up my mind, it will be willingly and unconditionally. Yea… *nods*

Ah, makes me wonder how seriously someone actually takes you when you tell him/her, “take my heart and please don’t break it”. So fragile, it is.

Anyway, found something funny while surfing the net.

[Sleeping Positions of Couples]

Totally laughed out loud at the very last picture. HAHAHAHA!!!

Quickie

A quick update since I’m taking a short break from clearing the Godzillas of all my projects.

Saw this vid on YouTube and it makes me wanna steal a PS3 home, pronto!!!

Little Big Planet on PS3 – Tetris Recreated:

ARGHHHHH!! So cute!!! I WANNA PLAY!!! WHO HAS A PS3 WITH THIS GAME? Can lemme play for one night only…….one night is enough…… please please please pretty please??? *begs* =|

Oh yea, with regards to the previous entry. I got the answer I want! Yippeeee!!! But it makes me feel a little stressed now too. Argh. Such is life. Always full of challenges. Will take it in stride and do my very best. If not I’ll change my name to… er… Candy Xiao Mi Tao.

OMG damn gross. That grossness is enough to motivate me.

Wokay that’s all folks! Will update more once my assessment comes and GOESSSS!!!

Cross cross cross!

Am crossing all my fingers and toes and my every strand of hair on my tiny head.

Waiting for a very important reply tomorrow.

I’m hoping for nothing but THE best!!!

Guan Yin Ma please bless me with your utmost mighty Niang Niang powers. Just for me. Thank you thank you.

如果沒有你

hey 我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的  有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

hey 我真的好想你
太多的情绪  没适当的表情
最想说的话  我该从何说起?
你是否也像我一样在想你…

如果没有你  没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果  还是要爱你

如果没有你  我在哪里
又有甚么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自己

hey 我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否也像我一样在想你…

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Lonely Saturday night…

Just me, my projects and lots of my A2 artworks lying around the floor in my room. Don’t know why I feel especially emotional tonight. Maybe I’m like what PY calls… a tortured romantic artist. Haha…

Cleared out my cupboard and found something I treasured. It’s just a small piece of paper with a few words… Something simple from a tutor in JC. All my classmates have it but I’m not sure if they still keep it.

Anyhow, I added a new page to keep a digital copy of it. I wanna share it with all of you. Read it here.

These lyrics make sense…

Are they trying to tell me something?

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如果连自尊都已经不再需要
这个世界什么爱你买不到?
天真全部可以倒掉
海誓山盟变成一种玩笑

如果连誓言都已经不再重要
还有什么事值得你去骄傲?
所有承诺都随风燃烧
你可知道…

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It’s true… it’s so true.